the birth of my first

this entry is from my previous blog. I wrote it back in 2010 when my 1st son was born. I'm glad I did. sometimes you forget the little little things after a while. So I'm reposting it here. for me and for him to read (one day)   :)

the birth of ali mirza jr

tuesday 23rd Feb 2010

12.15 midnight - felt my first contraction, didnt really realize it was a contraction until after the 2-3rd time of contraction..took out my little book and recorded the time.. 25 minutes to 1 contraction..hmm..still got time.. remember the nurse told me it must be 10 minutes to 1..baru g hospital

4.30 am - went to the toilet... and... blood... i was like..should i wait..or should i go to the hospital...woke up hubs... went to mom's room..asked what should i do... mom said go hospital..sbb my first pregnancy kan..taktau ape nak expect..

5.30 am - off to hkl

6.30 am - register, checked by the doctor - no opening

7.00 am - warded

4.30 pm - checked by the doctor again- still no opening

7.oo pm - discharged from hkl (sgt laa ramai org sampai wad penuh..even yg dah ade 2cm opening pun die hantar balik..prioritize yg betul2 nak bersalin...)

wednesday, 24th feb 2010

thruout the night - contraction. contraction.contraction. sakit. sakit. sakit.

4.00 am - contraction 1 to 10 to 25 seconds

4.30 am - mom was ready to take me to private hospital if gov still send me back home..mak punya tak puas hati sbb hkl hantar balik...huhu...kesian tgk me tahan sakit...sweet kan mak..naluri seorang ibu (which i understand now..) hehe...thanks mom...

5.00 am - decided to go to selayang hospital after mom did a series of calls to the private hospital

5.45 am - checked by the doc @hospital selayang. 1 cm opening (ok..thats a start!)

7.00 am - checked again , 3 cm opening (wow! that was fast...alhamdulillah) had to wait at the waiting area sbb wad sume penuh..mmg menahan sakit yg amat laa sbb kene duduk tunggu kan...dah laa tak cukup tido..ngntuk takyah ckp laa..

10.00 am - still 3 cm (hmm..lambat laa pulak) , masa ni mak n hubs was waiting with me kat waiting room...asked mom to go back first sbb kesian tgk mak mcm letih jer..but she insisted to wait....

12.00 pm - 4 cm !! finally to the labor room !!! but before that, doctor inject ubat bagi buang air besar...i went straight to the toilet right after die masukkan ubat..giler cepat ok! then die suruh baring n doctor wanted to pecakan air ketumban..but tangan doc tu pendek sgt..alih2 staff nurse yg buat.. sakit? sakit contraction lagi kot..

1.15 pm - masuk labor room...sakit amat2!! mase tu ingat ayat qursi jer.tak ingat dah bende lain..punya sakit..then hubs masuk... sat beside me..guided me baca surah2 n ayat2....

2.30 pm - ade nurse masuk nak tanya mau epidural ke tak..die kata normally diorang akan offer untuk yg 1st pregnancy... walaupun before ni mmg determine takmo epi..konon2 dah biase jatuh sini sana n dah biasa sakit..boleh tahan laa kan..rupa2 tak...i just couldnt stand the pain mase tuh..so tanpa pk panjang..trus angguk jer...

2.45 pm - masuk epidural.. it wasnt really that painful sbb contraction lagi sakit...plus the doctor was very2 friendly..n funny... so didnt really felt the pain mase die masukkan epi tuh

4.30 pm - doctor dtg check opening... 5cm!! wahh...lambatnyer...!! 4 hours and only 1cm opening..?? i felt like crying...ops..i did cry i think...mom datang teman me for a while...sembang sket2...i couldnt remember what we talked about.. i only remember the pain.. (yes..even with epi..it was still painful..maybe not as painful as not taking the epi..but still rasa sakit nyaaa....)

8.30 pm -again, doctor masuk check.. 6cm!!! i was like...ur kidding right??? only 1cm???? 4 hourss!!! doctor said, they give another 2 hours...if still opening kecik, prepare for surgery...

10.30pm - 8cm...!!! ok... im sooooo ready for C-sec !! but no, doc said...i give u another 2 hours.....lawak ke hape..?? i was like begging the doc nak bedah jer...mase tu contration cam sgtlaa kerap..nak bace ape2 pun dah tak daya....tapi doctor tak bagi..die kata sayang sbb dah bukak 8...huh...

12.30 am -10 cm...finally!!! doctor kata bila rase cam nak terberak tu pushh sket2..since sbb me on epi..so i wont feel the urge nak push sgt...so start teran sket2...

12.45 am - 3 doctors, 2 nurses.... the real pushing begins... turns out i was so out of energy to push (my last meal was at 7am, 2 keping roti jer)..doctor had to use the vacum to suck the baby out...i was like whatever...just get the baby out please...sakitnya..masyaAllah...never in my whole life had i ever ever experienced that kind of pain..

1.20 am - doc put the baby on me....mak aih...beratnya!! hehe.. 3.68 kg people!! semangat anak ku...i didnt really get to really look at my baby..because he wasnt crying the doctor quickly took my baby off me and out of the room.. i was so worried he didnt cry..but then a nurse came in and said.." anak awak kluar2 jer tido ..tapi dah tepuk2...dah nangis dah.."...fuhhh...alhamdulillah...lega...but i didnt get to see my baby until the next day sbb he was sent to NICU sbb kepala die injured 5 cm long...sian die..

after that sempat sembang ngan the doc when he was stitching me up (siapa kata tak rase sakit mase jahit tu?? sakit yerrr) huhu....told the doctor.. after that experience...nak sorang jer anak..tak sanggup dah...then he laughed..he said.. "i bet u puan, by 2 years time i'll see u on this table again..." ...hehehe...well...we'll see about that k...;p

lepas tu, everything was a blur...i was in and out of conscious... jap tido..then sedar2 hubs was beside me..i think i tried to smile and make a conversation, but i remember hubs asked me to sleep...i did ask bout our baby..but i cant remember hubs response....

anyways...the next thing i remember, mom was kissing my forehead at 6ish am and i was already in the ward...and all i felt was pain all over..and i did not have the energy to move at all...

slept until 7 something until the doctor came to examine me..then slept again until 8 am when the nurse came in and forced me to bangun n g toilet..giler garang tapi paham kene kuatkan semangat n takleh buat lembik...huhu...

hubs arrived at 10am and took me to see my baby in NICU..s.edih jer tgk baby penuh ngan tiub sini sana..n kepala die bengkak...tak boleh nak angkat sbb kepala die sakit..so tgk jer laa die terbaring kat situ ..sedihh...tahan nangis but tak daya...

stayed in the NICU for 5 days... mula2 nak monitor his head, after that die start kuning which is normal for baby yg kluar dengan luka...but masuk balik NICU on the 10th day sbb kuning die naik...sedih tgk die terbogel bawah lampu tu....

but now alhamdulillah die dah makin ok..reading jaundice pun dah turun...mak die pun dah stabil..so baru boleh nak sambung berblog.. huhu..

fuhh...panjang membebel...but i guess i needed to record this experience...sementara masih fresh di ingatan...but i doubt i'll ever forget it...;)

so lastly...may i present to you... the apple of my eye....my little hero...

AQIL SIDQI BIN MOHD ALI MIRZA

Love,

Aisyah